Ode to alan.

hey, how're you doing? ive got hardly any time, i seem to have been rushing around like a mad thing all day long. This is partly because as Suz and jenny stayed over at mine last night i didnt get up very early, and have been trying to catch up on myself ever since. But i dont mind, cos last night was really great - we watched "lost", ate chocolate, drank wine, and then chatted until we fell asleep. Now and then it's really good to have time away from the guys... :P

...but then again its not, cos im missing alan so much! i nearly rang him at 1.30am last night, just so i could hear his voice. After a lengthy battle with myself i DID manage to resist, because 1) the girls were round, 2) he was most likely asleep and wouldnt appreciate being woken up, and 3) i need SOME self-control! but yeah, definitely struggling with him being away again. I've finally worked it out after nine months of this "now he's here, now he isnt" existence that how much i miss him when he goes back to glasgow is proportional to how long he is home for - if he's only home for a weekend, i don't let myself get used to him being here, and so cope better when he goes - but when it's nearer a week like this time, the gap left when he leaves for college drives me mad. I feel love-sick, it's terrible. Why do you people read this drivel?! go and do something healthy like eat an apple or go for a run!

Anyway, i'm off to big band now (see the link!) after a day of working at the shop and cleaning the house. This will involve lugging a tenor saxophone down my street to catch a bus five miles across town - it's sizeable enough to merit its own ticket! but im looking forward to doing something different. Bye for now x