I haven't blogged in such a long time. At first i was just busy, but then it was like "oh i can't be bothered to try and write down anything that's going on", and so it's taken till today, when i really have NOTHING else to do, for me to start again. So now I'm trying to think what's happened in the last couple of weeks. Well, firstly alan came home for the summer. That seems such a long time ago! it feels like he's never been away now, and i think i'd go crazy if he disappeared off again - all it takes is him being home for a long weekend for me to lose all capability for long-distance. I've also turned twenty, which in some ways was a bit of a non-event. I mean, i had a really nice day, but didnt do much for it - me,mum,dad,tim and alan went out for a meal in the evening. It didnt matter, cos twenty is hardly a "big" birthday like 18, or 21, and besides, a lot of the people i would have liked to spend it with were away or busy. Anna and Mike couldn't be up, Daniel was in San Fransisco, and Suz had phil up for the weekend. SO all in all, it was a fine day. Though I couldnt help remembering back to the year before, when i turned 19. A group of us were in dublin to see U2 play the vertigo tour at the time, and it was a-m-a-z-i-n-g. We saw them at croke park in the open air - i had the stars above me, U2 in front of me, 80,000 people behind me, and alan by my side - he was only just back from india. I remember thinking life couldnt get much better.

Since then, i've just been working lots. And i've lost my voice, totally. This is the third day of whispering, and im heartily sick of it now. perhaps thats why im blogging again, because its a way of communicating other than talking? anyway. im done for now. im going to go and write some letters, and then hang out with my grandparents who are up for the week from bristol.

i wish life could be simple.